INTRODUCTION                                                                                           

Note to the readers,
 
...So it was that in June of 1998, almost three years from the day that I first laid down this book, I once again picked it up, no longer capable of ignoring my hunger to be free. Free of the lies. Of the pretense and the baggage that I had carried for the majority of my life. The baggage of guilt, doubt, and uselessness that had twisted turned and shaped me into a creature that not only did I not know but one that I did not like. Over the years, I had become spineless, fearful, and weak. Scared of my own shadow and burdened by my family's shadow.  
 
 
So once again embracing the one outlet which God had provided me, this time, I embraced it with a hunger and determination to finally experience freedom. Freedom to be whoever I was, minus the weight of the baggage. Minus concern about my family's public image. Minus the secret of the abuse. And most importantly, minus the anger of it all.

 
Freedom is a useless commodity if your life is in need of change, and still, you refuse to embrace God's greatest gift to mankind. The right and the freedom to choose a better life for yourself. Opportunities that you have and do not use may be opportunities that you lose and never gain again.

 
Once on a downward spiraling road of despair, trapped in a world of imagery, deception, brokenness, I was convinced that my life had no meaning. Faced with the dilemma of belonging to a family that I did not seem to be a part of, or want to be a member of, I rummaged from one road of despair to another. Until at last, I learned to accept and embrace the freedom that God grants us all;
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths"...


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​​INTRODUCTION ​​                                                                    
Note to the readers,

...So it was that in June of 1998, almost three years from the day that I first laid down this book, I once again picked it up, no longer capable of ignoring my hunger to be free. Free of the lies. Of the pretense and the baggage that I had carried for the majority of my life. The baggage of guilt, doubt, and uselessness that had twisted turned and shaped me into a creature that not only did I not know but one that I did not like. Over the years, I had become spineless, fearful, and weak. Scared of my own shadow and burdened by my family's shadow.  

  
So once again embracing the one outlet which God had provided me, this time, I embraced it with a hunger and determination to finally experience freedom. Freedom to be whoever I was, minus the weight of the baggage. Minus concern about my family's public image. Minus the secret of the abuse. And most importantly, minus the anger of it all. 
  
Freedom is a useless commodity if your life is in need of change, and still, you refuse to embrace God's greatest gift to mankind. The right and the freedom to choose a better life for yourself. Opportunities that you have and do not use may be opportunities that you lose and never gain again.
 
Once on a downward spiraling road of despair, trapped in a world of imagery, deception, brokenness, I was convinced that my life had no meaning. Faced with the dilemma of belonging to a family that I did not seem to be a part of, or want to be a member of, I rummaged from one road of despair to another. Until at last, I learned to accept and embrace the freedom that God grants us all: 
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths"...